"...and u're still my numero uno!"

"Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

How long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Cause maybe there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong.."

The Cure and The Cause

You give sweet, and how easily, I, I fall deep
Your touch pours like honey on my skin, smooth it lingers
You, the cure the cause
Of my blues, My only flaw
Your sea it can freezing, I thought I'd float
I sink deeper blue, by you I'm consumed
Oh I'm such a fool thinking I Won't get caught in your downhill flow
Swept away, what good is a beautiful day, I'm alone
<B>And yooou, the cure and the cause
Of my blues, My only flaw</B>

You keep needing, keep calling
The cure and the cause
<B>You keep needing, keep calling
The cure and the cause<B>
You keep needing, keep calling

Even from a shut door
You step from view
Can still see you, <B>your shadow tells me more</B>
Don't take your love away, your love away...

Just a few things before I head on my way
<B>You are wonderful and good when you want to be
You are what I want but not what i need</B>
<U>And you are no good for me</U>
But you are the cure, oh yeah, and you are the cause of my blues
Cure me, cure me...
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"The Man WOMAN Who Can't Be Moved"

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl BOY can you tell her HIM where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man WOMAN
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you ?!
'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

So I'm not moving, I'm not moving
Policeman says, "Son DAUGHTER you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she HE changes her HIS mind this is the first place she HE will go

'cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,I'm not moving, I'm not moving
People talk about the guy GIRL that's waiting on a girl BOY
There are no holes in his HER shoes but a big hole in his world
Maybe I'll get famous as the Man WOMAN who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner

'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the Man WOMAN who can't be moved.

Dedicated to my 110905.

Call me stupid, idiots or whatever it is, i don't really care.. i did stupid things that i wish i didn't do.. i'm so sorry for every mistakes that i've done to you.. i just need you back.. ohh hell this regretness never go away :(

kisah dilematis di pojokan MBRC!

Alkisah, tadi selesai UAS filipina yang lumayan menghibur karena soalnya familiar, anak gaul MBRC mode : ON lah gue kan yaa. sampek di sana gue bertemu dengan widha lalu kami sama-sama minjem skripsi (karya ilmiah-red) buat bahan makalah singapura. terus kami membaca dan mengetik. di tengah-tengah perjalanan, sekitar pukul setengah 4, widha cabuts. alhasil single fighter lah kan gue.

Tidak lama setelah kepergian si widha itu, sayup-sayup gue denger suara si RAJA EBEN. Gue carilah sumber suara itu lalu setelah berhasil menemukan, gue mengajak doi buat ngerjain makalah singapura bareng secara gue sama doi berada di bawah 1 tema yang sama. kami pun sama-sama tenggelam dalam pembuatan makalah masing (walaupun di sela-sela itu kadangkala gue nanya2 si eben ttg fakta perintilan mengenai singapura). setelah beberapa lama tenggelam dengan lap to the top aka LAPTOP dan skripsi pegangan masing-masing, gue menemukan titik buntu lalu berinisiatif mencari skripsi lain. alhasil, gue borrow lah skripsi pegangan eben ya kan. terus gue baca-baca terussssssssssssssssss............................

ternyata gue menemukan sebuah fakta aneh binti unik nan ajaib. kena apa?? TERNYATA DALAM SKRIPSI PEGANGAN GUE DAN EBEN TERDAPAT FAKTA YANG BERBEDA mengenai siapa yang memperoleh suara oposisi di parlemen singapura pada pemilu 1980. di skripsi pegangan gue (sumpah ribet banget gue nulisnya, tapi apa daya gue ga mau nyebut oknum, ga etis) tertulis bahwa pada pemilu 1980, pihak oposisi singapura yang mendapatkan kursi di parlemen adalah dari Worker's Party yang diwakili oleh Jeyaratnam. sedangkan di skripsi pegangan eben tertulis bahwa pihak oposisi yang mendapatkan kursi di parlemen singapura ialah dari Singapore Democratic Party yang di wakili oleh Chiam See Tong.

NAH BINGUNG KAN GUE!! JADI YANG BENER YANG MANA DEH??
masalahnya ini menyangkut pembahasan masalah dalam makalah gue yang dimana makalah gue membahas tentang perolehan suara partai oposisi singapura dalam pemilu 1959-1980. kalo gue sampek salah tulis bisa bahaya sekali kawan-kawan! ini menyangkut fakta historis singapura dan juga NILAI MAKALAH gue (hahaha tetep ya orientasi nilai akademis :p)


yang bikin gue bingung lagi adalah kenyataan tulisan yang berbeda gue dapetin dari SKRIPSI! secara skripsi itu adalah penentu kelulusan seseorang dalam jenjang pendidikan universitas, lah yah kok bisa beda fakta begitu toh?? ini sejarah politik singapura loh, udah terjadi loh, DAN KOK YA BISA ADA KONTRADIKSI BEGITU?? sumpah bingung banget gue! sungguh dilematis, ckck! (lebay ga sih?? hahaha)


menurut anda sekalian bagaimana?? adakah yang bisa membantu saya memecahkan masalah ini?? (P.S : KALO ADA YANG TAU YANG MANA YANG BENER PLEASE KASIH TAU GUE YA, URGENT DOT COM! THANKSKYY YOU GUYS!)

end of april.

end of april, is this mean end of my sad ending stories?
ohhh plisss make it real make it true. i need some kind of great medication to heal my pain. i can't figure out what kind of hurt is that, but i know i'm in an absofashionlutely hard situation. i've made damn sure to myself that the pain was away but that's ain't true. i was lying to myself.

ME STILL CAN'T STAND IT. PAINFULL, ENDS WITH FRIGID-NESS!!! (is it a right grammar? ough i don't fucking care. i just need to write my feeling!)

i need fresh air, i need to breath well. HELP ME, SOS!

i've ran away from reality, friends and everything.
how could this happen to me? am i too cruel at the past then this massive tragedy are the carma for me? am i? have i through this shitty crap to get my happines again?? am i deserves this?? oh HELL, answer me! !!



(00.29 @ AC4)

lagu penenang! huff.

IF THIS ISN'T LOVE - JENNIFER HUDSON


I'm calling this fone up just keep tellin how much
I really love him cause he's everything I want
He listens to me, cares for me
So why'd you leaving me?

God sent me an angel up from above
To love me for life
Things would be perfect
Only because it's the only way
I can describe and say

[Chorus:]
If this isn't love
See what it is, is like I'd be dreaming and just playin crazy

If this isn't love
See what it is, cause I never felt like this baby

If this isn't love

L-o-v-e what is (in) me?
L-o-v-e Oh...
If this isn't love [x2]


I'm selfish cause I don't wanna share
When nobody not even knows
People that came before me
But see I ever believe.

God sent me an angel up from above
To love me for life
Things would be perfect
Only because it's the only way
I can describe and say

[Chorus:]
If this isn't love
See what it is, it's like I'd be dreaming and just playin crazy, (oh)

If this isn't love (No)
See what it is, cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn't love

L-o-v-e what is (in) me?
L-o-v-e Oh...
If this isn't love [x2]

So if you got real love
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
The kind of love that beats
Wild like a club
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up, if this isn't love
Cause I know I ain't crazy
I know I ain't trippin
I know I ain't sleepin
I know that it's love
See me with my hands up
If you think I'm dreamin
I know I ain't dreamin
Cause this reason maybe
And I know what is love
If this isn't love...

orientasi gading

gading oriented. ga tau knapa akhir2 ini selalu byk bisikan untuk mengunjungi kawasan yang notabene kedip 500ribu kali baru nyampe dr area gue. mungkin karena sekawanan gue tinggal daerah rawan banjir itu kali ya? ah tapi ngga juga maann. pas semester awal kuliah ga demen banget gue kesonoh. apa gara2 gue abnon utara? ahh non sense! terus terus apa sih apa dong yaaa??

apa mungkin gara-gara gue kesyepian tingkat kronis kali yaa? kalo gue kupu-kupu (kuliah-pulang kuliah-pulang) bisa2 nggila sesaat gue meratapi kesendirian gue (cailah LEBAY!hoo xp). secara ya kan, ibu bapakuh bekerja, kakak ku juga antah berantah. pacar lagi berjuang dengan alam ampe kamis depan. RRRRRRRRR! gue butuh jalan-jalan! refreshing! (pdhl sebelomnya juga emang ga pernah betah diem di rumah HAHAHA.)

dimulai dari Selasa kemaren gue ngegading secara dadakan hanya karena gue niat nebeng ampe halte stasiun ama pejor eh yang ad keterusan ampe gading haha. gue, anie, ciko, anes bermain2 sebentar. kami berniat hanya sekedar menghilangkan penat. KAMI KARAOKE! seru seada-adanya ahahaha. nyanyians, jogetans, tereakans, fotoans.. WAW SYERUUUUUU! SYEDAP SYEKALIH sebagai pelipur laraaaaaaaaa YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAYYYYY!

nah hari Jumat gue kembali ke gading lagi maaannn! niatnya cuma ke rumah christie. ketemu si kondang mau ceceritaan, minta nasihat atas derita batin gue eh UUG deh gue, UJUNG-UJUNGNYA GADING! hahahaha. nyushi sama EDO terus dtglah cika anes anie. lalu kami ke coffee corner (sumpah maann nongkrong disinskyy asiks abis sofaannya haha). ketawa2 ampe begooookkkk ahahaha SYENENGGGGGGGG :D terusss dtg deh psgan uhuyy abad ini, mak comblang gue dan pacar gue hahaha. mereka niat abis deh bljr bhsa inggris ampe ngegading hahaha. nah terusss muncullah si sammy. lanjuts lagi tawa2 cerita2 sampah2an haahahahaahahaha. aaaaaaannnnggg HAPPY! THANKSKYYY SO MUCH YA YOU GUYS! ME LOVESS YAAAAAAAA :) terus sebelum pulang gue ktmu sepupu gue dulu deh. doi traktiran pizza la piazza (atseekk gretongan haaha). terus abis mam, fulanngggg deh eyke. SELESAI. mau istiqomariah ach ach ach hahahaha.

(akhir yang sgt amat tidak bagus dan gantung ya? tp sumpah apa daya maann mata gue udh sepet!!)

LATER!

kisskiss baby C!